靠！！！

今天突如其来的班会，
实在是。。
够够力！！！

麻烦你，
以后，
在讲某些事情的时候，
先查清楚再讲。。
不要只是看了事情的后续，
然后就乱乱篇事情的前序。。
什么都不知道。。
然后就以为自己很了解事情的经过。。
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同一个“忠”班，
同一个我，
却有不同的人。。
为什么讲话的态度会不一样？？
对！！
我承认，
我对你们讲话的态度是很不好，
可是，
为什么你们却不想一想，
难道你们没有问题吗？？

“无风不起浪”
难道风是我，
浪也是我？？
那我未免也太忙了吧？！

或者，
我说个例子来给你们听听吧。。
两个包子，
一个是红豆的，
一个是叉烧的。。
两个吃起来，
当然会有不一样的感受。。
我喜欢吃红豆的，
当然会很爽。。
我不喜欢叉烧的，
吃起来当然会不爽。。

可是，
如果你把叉烧的，
换成莲蓉的，
因为我喜欢吃莲蓉，
所以，
很理所当然，
我也会吃到很爽！！

那应该有很了解了吧？！
我不是在找借口掩护我自己，
也不是在推卸责任，
只是你们讲到你们好像没有错的样子。。
然后我错完的样子。。
如果连这样一点点不爽的语气都不能忍受的话，
那我也无话可说了。。

为什么会不爽？！
可能是我已经忍无可忍了吧。。
讲了那么多次，
为什么我就是没有看到一点点的改善？？
为什么你们就是不会想到别人？？
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这一班，
在我心里，
说好，
也不是。。
说不好，
也不是。。
但是，
我就是找不回以前三忠的感觉了。。
一点也没有。。

团结，
我真的找不到。。
合唱比赛，
要练个习都难。。
教师节，
报个销也要用点硬的才会有人理我。。
给我的感觉就像是，
这一班的事情和你们无关。。
是生是死也都不管你们的事。。

默契，
看到老师脸色已经不好看了，
还可以很有“默契”地继续吵。。
而且还越吵越大声。。
所以，
除了吵的时候，
我真得找不到我们还有什么时候是很有默契的。。

既然不爽，
那为什么要勉强自己回答？？
搞得好像我在拿着抢，
指着你们的头，
强迫你们一定要回答我的问题。。
我们只是要反应，
也那么难？

我知道，
这一篇部落一贴上去之后，
一定会有人不爽。。
我无所谓。。
反正你们要不爽我，
我也没辄。。
只是在你们不爽我之前，
请你们想想我讲的东西。。

我只是希望看到一点点的改善而已，
有那么难吗？？
难道上到了高二，
还是同一班，
班会里，
还是讨论着同样的问题？？

我不想跌班，
更不想看到同样的问题一直持续下去。。



P/S: Aiks... I just keep typing Chinese for recently post... English post will be post up as soon as possible... =)

失望。。

原来，
什么东西一开始都是一个错误。。

原来，
我在团里，
一点重要性都没有。。

原来，
我做了那么多东西，
到头来，
得到的回应是这样。。

别人不爽我，
我可以接受。。
因为他们不了解我。。
但是为什么你们也要不爽我？？
你们知道吗？？
你们的一举一动，
都让我很失望。。

别人在背后讲我的坏话，
也就算了！！
我可以了解。。
但为什么你们也是这样。。
别人讲，
你们也在讲。。

为什么什么东西都一定要拿来比较？？
为什么就是要拿别人来跟我比？？
为什么就是要扮着一副自以为很了解我的样子。。
可是到头来你却什么都不懂，
你却什么也不了解。。

原来，
我是一个这样的人。。
什么都不会做，
就算做了，
也都做错！！

对！！
我自认我人缘很差。。
但是我曾经感到很庆幸，
因为有你们。。
但是你们现在却这样。。
我真得很失望。。

去玩，
早回，
我错！！

学会，
早回，
我也错！！

想做个孝顺的人，
不想父母每天都在等我，
担心我，
担心到八九点，
等到八九点，
我也是错！！

我不会体谅别人，
我只会影响别人的情绪，
我也有错！！

总之，
我做什么都是错！！
从来都没有对的一次！！
只因为我只会做错事，
不会做对的事！！！

我一直以为，
你们懂我！！
就算不是很多，
一点点我也很满足。。
但，
原来不是。。
你们都跟其他人一样。。
你们都以为我在扮可怜。。
你们都以为我的辛苦是讲的。。

我一直以为，
我有时候可以跟你们诉苦。。
但原来不是！！
我跟你们讲的，
你们就当我在破坏你们的情绪。。

每天回到家，
很累，
无所谓，
因为我懂，
有人比我更累。。
所以我没有出声。。
但是偶尔，
讲一下，
发泄一下，
却可以被你们讲到这样。。

对！！
又是我错！！
我不对！！
因为我不会体谅你们，
我让你们的情绪变到很差。。
我不向婵那样。。
那么会体谅，
我错！！

总的来说，
只要有错，
都是我造成的！！
只因为我只会做错事！！

你们一直以为，
什么东西都是我想的。。
去玩，
早回。。
你们以为我想的吗？？
练习，
早回。。
你们以为也是我想的吗？？
我只是想有一天早一点回家而已。。
不想每次回到家都是八九点。。
难道在你们的眼里就是不负责任？？
难道在你们的眼里，
早回就是那么难？？

原来，
从以前到现在的一切，
都是假象！！
都是做出来的！！
都不是真心的！！

我不想再看到你的留言了，
那些流言，
只会像一把刀刺进我的心。。

不爽！！！

真的不明白，
为什么人就是要用分数来比较一切？？
听到别人一直问：“你几分？”“你多少分？”
真的感到很压力。。
分数真的那么重要吗？
它只是求学时期的一个东西来的。。
难道你出到社会后，
你还要用分数来比这个比那个??
那个时候，
已经没有分数了！！
分数不代表一切。。
难道老了，
你还有继续活在分数的世界里？？
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今天练习。。
原本以为练The Phantom of The Opera，
怎知道换歌了。。
也无所谓，
反正我的心情也没有被这个影响到。。
看到谱。。
想到上个星期的事。。
想在这里好好的发泄下。。

请问谱有分烂的还是好的吗？？
还不是纸一张。。
用我的谱有什么问题？？
复印谱给每个人就是要拿来用。。
一直收在文件夹里面不用。。
等什么？？
等几时才拿出来用？？
等它生到一打孩子的时候才拿出来用？？
如果真的有听教练在讲的话，
根本就不用看什么笔记的，
看到什么做什么。。
为什么就是那么执著那些笔记？？
你不拿出来用，
当然就没有写到笔记啦。。
到时候，
就真的等它生孩子，
然后发霉了！！！
还浪费了钱。。
复印一大堆谱，
却没有拿出来用。。

如果真的那么不爽，那么不屑，那么不希罕我的谱的话，
就请你们以后不要再跟我拿你们没有的谱。。
自己去大文件夹里面找。。
可以的话，
也请你们顺便把我的整份谱丢掉。。
反正都没有用，
我也无所谓。。
放在那边也是浪费位子。。
不是不够位子吗？？！！
没有用也就算了，
还要给你们讲它是一份烂谱。。
它只是一张纸而已，
都没有错，
却被你们讲到那么没用。。
它未免也活得太辛苦了吧？！

想丢就丢。。
不用问过我。。
我说过：“我无所谓！！”
既然都已经给你们讲到那么没价值了。。
那你们爽你们就拿去丢吧！！
反正在你们的眼里，
它只是一堆烂谱，
一堆没有价值，没有用的谱。。
再拿出来用，
也只是给人讲到一文不值而已。。
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最近一听到别人讲他很累，
就很想顶回他。。
我觉得再怎么累，
也不会比我累吧？！
我每天搭车回家都需要两个小时。。
三点放学，
回到家都已经五点了。。
有时候还要拿着一大叠厚厚的书。。

如果有练习，
回到家都已经八点多九点了。。
我的晚餐就在这一段时间-八点多九点。。

有时候不是讲说，
早一点走就可以早一点回到家。。
而是早一点走的话，
回到家也是大约在这种时间。。
反而将更多的时间浪费在等车。。
因为早一点走，
就是大约六点离校。。
这个时候，
KL Sentral是特别多人的。。
至少都让你等一个小时才有车。。
到时候，
回到家还不是一样时间。。
我试过，
所以我懂！！
等车等到我想哭。。

回到家，
累到半死。。
根本没有心情做功课了。。
有时候，
第二天还有考试，
就只好打起精神读书。。
累过头的话，
根本就读不进脑。。
不懂自己在读什么。。

所以，
不要每次讲自己累！！
我懂，
有人比我跟累，
所以我也没有每天都在喊累。。



P/S：终于，发泄完毕！！

Roti Canai!!!

I suddenly want to have Roti Canai as my lunch today... So, at the second recess, i went down to the canteen and i was going to buy a Roti Canai for myself...

Queued to wait for my turn... In front of me have two guys which were going to have Roti Canai too... The first boy bought two Roti Canai for himself... Then the plate there just left two Roti Canai... I thought that the boy in front me will just buy one for himself... So that i can have one for myself too... But he bought two of them... Damn it... The Roti Canai had finished...

Then i ask the seller did he still have it or not?? He just ignore me... Fine... I will ask him later when it was my turn... The boy in front of me heard what i ask and he seems like so that happy... Maybe is because he had bought all the Roti Canai that left there or what?? Anything... Then i went to buy a bread for myself...

Damn it!!! A chance for myself to have Roti Canai at school... But at last, i got nothing... Haih... I will remember the boy who buy two of them... You won't have the chance again!!!

Sorry...

I had a plate of noodles and a cup of milo for my breakfast at Tuesday morning... Then i didn't have my lunch at school because i didn't mean to stay back for the new members' practice... But, i was been forced to stay back to teach all the new members because Yee didn't stay back that day and she didn't tell me earlier... Fine...

After that, i reach home at about 8.30 p.m.... After bath, i have my dinner at about 9.30 p.m.... It was just quite normal for me as i reach home at these time when i have band practice... That's all for Tuesday...

Next day, Wednesday... At the fifth period, i was feeling so that hungry... And i thought back something... I thought about i didn't have my lunch yesterday... Then i asked Phui Ann where was i yesterday during the second recess as i had forgot some of that... She said that i was sleeping in the class... That means that i didn't have my lunch and i have my dinner at about 9.30 p.m.... Oh My Gosh!!! I'm torturing my body... Feel so sorry to my body...

Although this is not the first time that i didn't have my lunch and have my dinner at about 8 p.m. or 9 p.m., but the point is: I didn't even feel hungry on Tuesday and i totally forgot about my lunch... And i thought back this incident on Wednesday... == I think I'm really too tired these days... So so sorry to my body... I shouldn't treat you like that... Sorry... T.T

Thanks!!! =)

Thank you my friends for all the belated present... I do love it very much... =)

Addicted

Recently, I'm addicted to MJ's song... His songs are nice and quite meaningful, such as "We Are The World", "Heal The World" and the other from these... His MV too!!!

He is so that perfect in his career... Moonwalk, dance with 45 degree and other than that... All of that are just a legend for the world and for us... Although now he was dead, but he will still live in our heart... Forever...

His was the most lonely person in the world... But now, You Are Not Alone...

Tired @ Exhausted

I'm tired!!!
I'm exhausted!!!
BUT,
Who knows???
Nobody knows...

我很累！！！
可是，
有谁懂？？？
没人懂。。。

My Report Card...

Finally, i get my report card for the first semester after holiday... Not bad for the result... I think that it was quite good for me because i didn't even think that i can have such result... Or maybe i thought too much for those days??

Get 20 in my class... And the marks was 80... Not bad right?? Ya... I think that too... Hehe^^ All of them in my class are PRO enough... Everyone seems like being quiet in the class but the result were frightened... Haih... Humans being like that every time...

It's enough for me as i'm not greedy... I just hope that i can remain my result for the coming semester... That's really enough... =D

Sukit~~

Finally, i got these photos from Pui Yee... Waited for a long time...

With Clarinetists...=)

Photos At Genting

Waiting for Pirate Ship...

That's nice!!!

I just forgot what we were pointing... Some animal...

Guys...

I like my look that day... Haha=)

After playing Sungai Rejang Flume Ride...

It's ready to go!!!

I was the first one...

Afraid because of Flying Coaster...

Feng...

Yong Hao...

Jee Yean, Pui Yee and me...

Can't take Jee Yean...

Smoky...

Hui Li and Pui Yee...

Chan And Hui Li

Chan And Hui Li...

Waiting for our turn...

Hui Li cried after playing Pirate Ship...

At Pirate Ship... I'm ugly in this picture!!!

Feng and Yong Hao...

Wan Yi and me...

Wan Yi and Me...



Hui Li and Me...

Smoky...

Monday Being At Genting Highlands!!!

It probably should be a holiday for us because of the academic exhibition... Yea... We were exhausted because of this academic exhibition... So, the school gave us a day is holiday... That's a right decision from the school... But, my dear clarinetists and i went to Genting Highland on this day...

Huan planned this trip for a long time... Finally, it was successful... It was great!!! Thank you Pui Yee that she had gave up her tuition and went with us... Thank you Feng went with us too although he was being very tired because of the academic exhibition... Thank you Huan for planning this trip... Thank you Yong Hao for coming too!!!

Monday morning about 8.45 am, everyone had arrived Titiwangsa... Luckily we called KL Sentral the day before and we knew that the bus there had full... So, we changed the meeting place to Titiwangsa... Or not, maybe we can't go there and Huan should be very sad...

Yong Hao was the last who arrived... But, he didn't late for that... Still having a sleepy face... In the bus, Yong Hao and Feng keep laughing for don't know what... Huan slept in the bus... Chan, Pui Yee and i sat together in two place because of some problem... We were doing something good because Chan let her place to an old woman... Haha...

Reach Genting about 10.30am... Went to the counter to buy tickets... The three guys were having their time in toilet for half an hours... I cannot think what they can do in the toilet for such a long time... So, as what, we had waited them for half an hour just because of the ticket... We can't take the ticket by ourselves but need to be wear by the booking clerk... It's just the same and i don't know why they need to have such rules... What a confusing problem... Wasting our time!!!

After that, we went to the Outdoor Theme Park... First, we had Pirate Ship... Hui Li scared of that... But she still have it with us... At first, we were quite afraid for that... So, we keep screaming... But no longer time, we had no feeling for that as it repeat the same height... Wan Yi was laughing but not screaming!!! == And we sang 心跳while playing this...

Next, we have Corkscrew... Quite nice... It has two times 360 degree turning... I will have that next time i go to Genting... After that, we have Space Shot... This is the first time i have this since i didn't try it before last time because i was not enough tall that time... Damn nice... The first time when the machine drop down, your but was not on the chair but leaving the chair... Can you feel it?? Aiks... I just don't know how to describe the feeling... Once you have tried it, you will know what I'm trying to say now...

Then, we went to have Spinner... It's nice... It was cold too... I toke off my shoes as my shoes were quite lose... My legs were going to freeze... Pui Yee still dare to have short pants... After we finished this, no longer time, it rained!!! So, we just went back to First World to have our lunch... We have it at McDonald... Oh My Gosh!!! It was expensive... A set of Fillet O Fish costs me RM13.20... But we still need to have it because every restaurant there were expensive but not just only McDonald...

After finished our lunch, the rain stopped!!! It's not kidding!!! Maybe the God knows that we need to continue our playing... But before that Yong Hao and Feng went to have archery... Then we went to have Flying Coaster... Just only Hui Li, Pui Yee, Jee Yean and i were playing this... Because this game need to pay again... Fine... It's quite nice... Nice till i need to shouted "Help" up there... Haha... Kinda funny... And i don't know that it has how many 360 degree turns... ==

After finished this game, we went to have Flying Dragon while Yong Hao and Feng were having Bumper Boat... They had queued this for quite a long time... They described this game as technical game and Flying Dragon as exciting game... Because they didn't join us in that game... We saw them when we were playing this game and we shouted their name... They saw us too!!! Because the distance between us was not very far... So they can see us...

Then, we went to have Rolling Thunder Mine Train... Yong Hao and Feng didn't join us at this game because they still having their technical game... Kinda nice... Then after that, they finished their game and join us at Sungai Rejang Flume Ride... I knocked my nose to Chan's back... Pain!!! But nice... All of them were quite wet after playing this game except me... I was kinda dry among them... That's all for the outdoor theme park...

We went back to the indoor theme park after this... We had Euro Express first... The two little boys in front of me scolded me and Jee Yean because of shouting too loud... Damn it... They scolded us in English... But me too!!! They just thought that my English was poor... What the... Is that wrong that i shouted because of got frightened???== Because i thought that this game was not that excited... But i was wrong... It is kinda excited when the machine having the turn...

We planned to have 4D Motion Master but they closed on this day... Fine... After that, we had our photo session... Taking photo for anything we saw and everywhere we went... Haha... But not many photo that we had taken...==

It's time to back!!! So we went back to the place that we arrived morning... Bought a hot coffee at Starbucks... Kinda nice feel as you have a hot coffee at such cool place... Then, we waited the bus at that place... Some of them went to buy some food at the restaurant there while waiting for the bus to arrive... They afraid that they will be hungry in the bus later... Finally, we were late and scolded by the people there... Aiks... So, they all who bought food at the restaurant were forced to cancel their order... But Pui Yee bought her food successfully...

Arrived Titiwangsa at last... Damn nice for this trip... I love it very much!!! It was my first time that i went to such a far place with my friends... It was also my last time too... Haih... Never mind... I will go there again with my family one day...

Oh ya... Our slogan at that day:"隆中华管乐团请注意，你们怕不怕？”“不怕！”“你们怕不怕？”“不怕！”“你们怕不怕？”“不怕！”

Hey friends... Thanks for bringing me a good memory... I will keep it in my mind forever... It will be the best memory...

学术学艺展（2）

Getting tired for this activity... Haih...

Having preparation on Thursday and Friday... Do anything what i can... Cutting, sticking and anything... Having those photo at the last post too!!! ^^

Saturday and Sunday was the day for the visitors... Kinda busy at first... But at last, NOT!!! Not many people came for this activity... Just some of them that are maybe quite free... I was one of them who giving out the advertisement to those people that came to visit... So, i know that clearly...

Our band were having performance for this two day... First day was in the morning... Nice weather... But second day was in the afternoon... I hate!!! What a hot weather!!! Big sun at the top of my head... My hair was going to burn!!!

Having ensemble in the class too!!! This was for those people who visit our classroom... Taking turns to have it!!! Quite noisy in the class because of our ensemble and the testing from the people... They tried to play the instrument as well...

I love the classroom which are all dark and having a little light from the bulbs... Having air-con inside there... Once i have finished my ensemble, i just went into this classroom... It was comfortable... 习臣sat inside for a long time just because of AIR-CON...

Giving out the flyers in the afternoon for these two days... All the people were quite cool... They just ignored us and walked away... Or not they threw away the flyers that we gave them... Yea... Once you have this action, you will have something bad... (Just kidding... Haha =D) Hey guys... We did this by ourselves and you now throw it away?! Damn it!!! For this two days, i get a conclusion - My legs are pain and the people beside us are actually kinda cool... ==

Having marching at the whole school to attract more people to our classroom to have a look... We walked into the canteen... Kinda funny!!! We had frightened those people which were donating blood too... I'm the FAKE Drum Major which taking the poster but not the baton... Haha=)

昭贤came... He keep saying me fat... And he always have the same reason if i ask him this question - 你做么会来的?? And he will say:"因为我搭错车..." He still said that this is his hobby... == So, i can't get the right reason every time...

Many ex-member came back... 国荣gets better with his ear... That's good!!! =D Others are getting fat or thin or more handsome... Haha ^^

Looking back last time video... All are just memorable...
道升is so that handsome...
子祥is a legend for our band...
羿峰is really a tall guy from Form 1 till now...
Hui Li looks cute now...
I miss Potato...
I miss Salina too!!!
When can i meet Huey Kee???
Aiks... My feel after watching those video...

Hey... 俊彦and伟扬... I had saw the video... It's quite funny... I don't know what i should say to both of you... But i won't say THANK YOU!!! Hehe =P

That's all for these two days... Nothing special except to be more tired than having practice...

At last - 筹委们,辛苦了!!!

学术学艺展（1）

Huan

Hui Li

Chan and Hui Li

ZzZz... All of us are sleeping, except Pui Yee...

It's nice!!! I love it!!!

Chan and me at school's toilet... But the mirror is dirty... Aiks... School's toilet are just digusting...

Hui Li and half-clarinetist - Jun

Hui Li and me... We both love the poster very much...

(Just ignore the word "Coming Soon" and "Showing Now" ==)

We love the piano...

Actually, the piano is a road that leads you to the next class... 管乐团星光大道

Pui Yee

Mei Ling with Pui Yee's hands below...

I do love this thing... =)